Matt 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness & all these things shall be added unto you.
Been reflecting on last sem ahead and wondering what is it abt the semester that made everything in the semester such a blessed one, and one that was filled with the joy, peace and favor of God….What God is trying to tell me through it, through my experience with Him, and through even the gift of my results. Because of there’s one thing I wanna take out frm the past sem on a personal level, it’s defn what God is speaking to me, in a more general n holistic manner, about my education life~ and I believe the verse above really encapsulates all of it. There are more specific, private stuff that I’ve learnt along the way from my Heavenly Father who loves to discipline so (but in such a loving way that sometimes the knowledge of His care and concern overwhelms the pain ~ giving me reason to rejoice).
This being a private blog however, I shall mention them more generally:)
-His Kingdom or My Kingdom?: this wraps up the hypocritical attitude towards serving. Through observations n experiences, I realize that not all who claim to serve God actually serve God, sometimes there is a tendency to self- service. Building up a kingdom of knowledge, wealth, power, leadership titles or even friends and connections, something which is mentioned in Matt 6 abt storing up treasures on Earth. Being in a leadership position is, I still feel, the toughest thing ever, because there are so much more things to wrestle with. Popularity, prestige etc. There is so much more responsibility a leader has to carry…not only the responsibility of planning, of leading, or of the pple, but personal responsibility and accountability as well. This semester, I found myself taking extra caution because of being so fearful of falling into pride, into hectic schedules that make me go into the routine for the sake of it. Cos every move, every mtg, has to be birthed from a heart that is on fire, a heart that is passionate and renewed, one that does not take things for granted or people for granted that they will do all the work. The first thing that God drilled into my FOC sem, as well as what my dad drilled into my throughout my life was to never ever use people for yr own advantage, but to always build them up to the fullest potential. This semester really taught me to appreciate people for who they are, to really try to see where they are coming from, and understand how they work. (coming fresh out of a sem where I was chair I believe there were alot of blind spots whereby last time, they had to get used to my working style but this time, I’m in a position where I have to get used to other’s working style). It really humbled me alot to look at the way others work … As during my first leadership position (FOC), as I placed so much heart and effort in it, I thought my working style was quite good w all those weekly summaries. But this semester, God really opened my mind to see the way others work, the brain and the different minds that He has given to each person, that has a unique and special ability of it’s own. If someone does things differently, it doesn’t mean that they don’t put as much heart into it… It just comes out in a different form. As humans, we can undercut the amt of heart pple put in… Humans look at the outward appearance, but only God looks at the heart. Who are we to judge the heart? N I’ve grown to love this diversity of working styles that God created cos in the first few weeks of
This sem I realized that WOO, God’s handiwork in each person is AWESOME. What most can do I can’t, n I really really thank God for opening my eyes to this…. I’m quite a high expectations sorta person, but this sem taught me~ whose expectations are u measuring it up against? If you’re a high expectations person, the only standard u can use is yrself. And it
Stems frm the pride that u place in the effort u put in. We cant expect anything frm men (let God work within each man), we can only have expectant hearts for what God is gg to do:)
Thank You God for helping me to understand and see my blind spots early in the sem and helping me overcome it, or it would’ve really hindered working r/s and move my focus off You to men.
It’s HIS kingdom we’re building… May all work with one accord, in harmony, to let His Kingdom reign (: on hindsight, when we really channel all our thinking and care and concern and love to the people around us (not only to a ministry- as ministry is all abt pple not
abt programmes) n being good stewards of the roles He had given us (student, daughter etc), the more you think abt His Kingdom — the less worry as you’re focussing on Him and not yrself — the more You leave it up to Him to care for you. And when You allow Him to take care of You, boy He really does take care of yr every need.(:
Endnote: hahaa I didn’t really do in depth reflection abt this before lol came as a write looks like blogs can function as a channel for even more reflection! Actually why is this surprising hahaha all my posts come as i write! maybe Gods trying to speak abt this As well. 
gtg now I’m in the mrt writing Tata!
